In speaking with my teacher and mentor last week, she mentioned that the first part of 2016 had a specific energy shift and not necessarily a positive one. In hind site, I could see this to be somewhat true. I watched a lot of people deal with illness, more stress, loss of loved ones, major life changes, injury and so on. So if you felt some lack of energy or just a case of the blahs, you were not alone.
Writing my blog comes from a voice inside. Usually it's a battle of logic: "Maybe you should write about this..." "No you shouldn't, it's not good for business to show your feelings..." Oh if you could hear the voices in my head! But, I do write from the heart and in March there will be many shifts that will helps us to awaken even more. It is an amazing time of transformation and re-birth, giving us the opportunity to step out of the old way of being and into the new. Encouraging us to feel our way through, instead of thinking our way through. OH CRAP! Feelings?!
Yes, I have feelings! Actually all of my thoughts come from my feelings, and even though I may not always express my feelings, they are there, placed securely in my heart! On this journey I am learning to be OK with showing my vulnerabilities and through that I have found that I am very sensitive and let the words and actions of others sometimes take me down, stealing my energy. You may feel this way too sometimes. For me it brings up fear and also old patterns and experiences, showing me that I am still doing the work to release and grow. Ultimately when we feel discomfort with a person or situation, it is really more of an opportunity to hold the mirror up in front of us, taking a deeper look at our feelings to see what this experience can teach us about our SELF. When we let go of being reactive we can recognize that the experience is showing us we need to heal, moving us forward.
In the past week, I have been presented many opportunities to read about forgiveness, energy, growth and moving forward. So it seems that this is a sign that I should share with you. I thought I was pretty good at not staying stuck in a pattern for very long. I am learning to listen more to my intuition, but I also know that I want to please everyone, which is completely impossible. I seem to start with a feeling and then I start thinking and my mind takes over. With the thoughts, comes old patterns of fear and doubt. You can probably identify, right? We are human and it's human to sometimes let our ego get the better of us.
I won't bore you with specifics, but I have been given the opportunity, lets say, to continue my work in this area many times in the past month. Putting the mirror in front of me once again. My dear friend Carol watched me go through a situation and saw me begin to shut down. She said she can always see when I am getting ready to coil back into my cocoon. It's my way of protecting myself. I am finding my voice which is a major accomplishment for a people pleaser, but it does appear that my work continues... "I am not editing myself so much."
So if what they say about March being a time for transformation and "feeling", I ask myself as a thinker and goal oriented achiever / people pleaser, how can I continue to allow myself to be vulnerable, to express my feelings and use my voice without getting sucked back into my thoughts?
After my first draft of this post this morning, I took some time to reflect. In doing so, I came up with this mantra~ This is my journey and only I can live it. Everything is in Divine order according to God's plan. I will focus on what is mine to do and trust in the order. I will observe Satya, my truth, by living from the heart. Practicing gratitude and contentment in every moment, while releasing that which does not serve me well or keep me true to my purpose. I will enjoy the journey and each step that it takes to move forward.
March on I say! I love my feelings!
Here is a great article from MIND BODY GREEN on Heart Centered Living.